This is my Dad and I at the top of Table Mountain.
Saturday, December 22, 2007
Lost the Way
Ok so I haven't posted in a while but things haven't been happening so much lately. Work got really busy and also I told God that I give up chasing this dream that I have on my own. If He doesn't bring me the talents, song writing abilities and voice etc, then I'm wasting my time and since then (+- a month ago), it feels like I don't care about it anymore. It's scary in a way, because we have made certain decisions that will affect us financially if God doesn't come through in what we are believing Him for. To us it seems crazy to do what we are doing, but He keeps on reaffirming us to carry on, so we are on this path and absolutely need a breakthrough. In all this new pressure, music seems to have taken a backseat, but when I listen to good music, all the old intense feelings are still there and I just want to rush off and pick up my guitar again and start swinging the axe myself. But it feels different somehow, like I'm embarrassed to do this in front of anyone and I've lost my confidence. I'm not really sure if I want to continue playing at home cell next year either.
Anyway I am praying trying to open my heart before God and let Him do what ever He needs to do in my life, I desperately want to hear from Him for direction and instructions on what to do now.
Anyway I am praying trying to open my heart before God and let Him do what ever He needs to do in my life, I desperately want to hear from Him for direction and instructions on what to do now.
Thursday, December 6, 2007
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