What a weekend

ok, so God has been saying that we must be careful with our time because I work and 5 days go by without having much time do concentrate on my calling and developing myself, and then I get to the weekend and I have 2 days to find myself and explore this calling. So this weekend I started Saturday morning praying and asking God what to do and the only thing I felt is that I need to develop a lifestyle of worship, in that on very regular occasions I get down to worship my Father in heaven.

Well this was great but then I preceded to play guitar my myself and landed up getting all intense about it because I'm trying to jam 7 days of life into 2. Well this didn't go down well and the results weren’t good.

After hashing this all with Denise, we concluded that I gotta stay cool, keep God in my sights at all times and don't try to be the next Steve Via or Eric Clapton of guitaring and keep my focus on seeking what God is saying for me and the rest will work out. The real struggle I have with this is I don't want to be just some ordinary boring guitarist, will God give me talent that I never worked for? I also don't have 8 hours a day to practice anything anyway. I'm trusting for that in songwriting (lyrics and melody), singing and playing. It still seems crazy and it's a work to believe this. Somedays it's easier. If anyone's got any thoughts on this, please let me know, I feel like this is way out because common sense tells me to practice, and there is the story of the talents to read, so why does it seem different for me.

oh yes, I'm supposed to practice worshipping .... the rest must come after that.

Inspired

Everyday I get up thinking about music, dreaming about it, listening to it and being inspired. Sometimes I get connected to my heart and feel such a longing to draw in and expierience all that there is in it for me. Sometimes I get this sence that there is a river running below, almost like a storm water drain pipe and I'm looking in and sence this awsome volume of songs and music down there waiting for me to draw it up. I wish I could describe this feeling of intensity and volume and it's almost like it calls saying "draw me up". It feels like it could come overflowing out any second and then the lid slams shut. I don't know if that's me doing that, but I know I need to draw in to expierience what is just out of sight.

One guy who really has inspired me is Todd Agnew. Do yourself a favour and listen to him, especially his first album called "Grace like Rain" Man, what a voice and what a heart - I love it !!!

http://www.toddagnew.com/